-jarenriquez-

hey, it’s me again?! i’m just worried these days about my competency in school. i am afraid to lose what i’m used too. eventhough some apects in my life impels me to achive certain desires, still, they win in the end.

last summer, i was very eager-beaver to go back to schol and hasten again my mind and tried to test the limits of being a student. i am hoping that these time i can make it without having in mind its loopholes and promised myself to be better this time. but, the sad and upsetting part is, i was in a state of knowing and trying to be what i am. these things that impels me to achive what i truly desire is just a scrap that will surpass my life, as a student. there’s more to life than being in a conventional way of feeding your mind. i want to unleashed what’s my essence and edge. i want to conquer the clouds as if i am a powerful god. i want to be as free as to what freedom really means. unfortunately, the point that will make this "wants" will be going to a sad truth. that in life, there must  and will always have many pit falls even if you tried and tried to be the best in your own and unique way.

well, the best thing that i’ve learned so far, when we put it into short words the many years i spent my educational trip is that you might absorbed all the knowledges that humans wrote on history but it is up to you, it is for you to assess what you’ve really learned from kindergarten up to college. it is up to you on how far your capacity as a person to apply what you’d knew from just a small part of an educational environment to the more complex world outside of these institutions.

let no one, someone or something that degrades you to shine as a human.