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December 16, 2006

A date I should remember. Before getting into the exam in one of my major, I am cramming scanning and skimming through the photocopies. I was hopeful to the outcome of the test this time because, somehow, I did well in my previous exams. I never knew that our exam time will be 45 minutes. I was suggesting, before the exam, that there must be a multiple choice in our exam. Yet, it happened. There was a multiple choice. But the following pages was a "bangungot"; a curse, should I say. All are in the form of ESSAYS! It was bull shit! I did a shittiest way of reacting to the exam.

"Time is Up," he said.

And there I was "nangangapa na makabuo ng answers" but there never came in my mind. I was so depressed the way the exam goes. I felt that I was a "MORON"; a bitch with no brains at all! Shit! Fuck!

However, one of my classmate said that "it should not be a cause to approach CHRISTMAS with grief or depression." I replied "OK" but the mere fact of not answering the thematic message of the three film really sucked my day! And there again, another movie to critique. "SEX & LUCIA".  An erotic movie that contains sensible message for its audience. It’s burden for me to think about my performance in my major exam. I felt I failed my family.

MALLING…

I forgive myself afterwards. I refreshen myself and need to clarify all the bins in my mind. We had a window shopping with my friend at SM Davao after I took the exam. We just have our routine because it is mid-night sale and the fact of staring hotties in the mall was of one hobby we considered, nevertheless, we bumped into a food chain and ate our dinner, together, and then she paid off. After that, we decided to transfer to another mall, 5 kilometers from SM, and went to Gaisano Mall. We did stare to the sale, roaming around the second & third floor, and even to the fourth floor. Unfortunately, a friend of mine and my EX saw me with her boyfriend. I did fake my smile because I am not that close with her. We chit-chat in the arcade. Then saw again and slap me to my face when she met me with my EX’s new found GF. She even told me in a disgraceful manner that "wag kang magalit sa kanya ha, GF siya ni ****!" Damn fucker! She should haven’t to approach me that manner! She only proved to me that she was the same old ***** I remember way back in high school. Even if she will read this blog I don’t care! Simply, I DON’T CARE! i cursed them way back. Just pray that we must not cross our ways or else, I will be the one to approach her and slap her on her face!

ALONE…

Facing the monitor right now, I am suffering tiredness. My back is like slowly bursting. Before I typed this blog, I have watch the Pinoy Dream Academy Grand Finals Night and it never failed me to be surprised by the way the network does. Pinoy Big Brother will pave its way in our TV Set in March, 2007 and I just can’t wait to watch it every single day of that season. I should join PBB Season 3 in 2008. It would be a different one because I am going to graduate that time and make my new career to the real world.

SANTA’s Coming…

I think I saw Santa right now! He is riding in a broom with many gifts on his back. But hey, it is not Santa, it’s the witch. HarHarHar! It was joke. Christmas will be next week. I didn’t receive any gifts right now from a special person. Nah! There will be no Someone in my life. My life really sucks. Lots of problems to worry.

P.S. - Until next time of sharing my blog with friendsters. ciao!!!! Have a nice rest anyone.

It’s freakin Christmas holiday right now! People just cannot wait to celebrate Christmas like they’ve never experienced it before. But i observed these present Christmas, it’s like a lonely Christmas. There is a big difference this year than last year. I remembered last Christmas I was with my high school friends, party here and there but today’s Christmas, No Party, No gimmick. Tomorrow will be the start of Simbang Gabi. I am planning to get with the mass all by myself. My will is strong but i think my body impedes me to do so. But inspite of that weakness I am looking forward this Christmas.

Some of my classmates will go their respective origins to celebrate the yuletide season. Cold wind. Carolling. Food. Firecrackers. Silence. Birth.

Christ!

Amidst the fancy thoughts and happenings that’s install for us this Christmas, we should remember the very reason why we celebrate it. But the spirit of excitement and surprise must be there. So that No Christmas will be remembered as a scrap or dull.

Note: Maybe, next year, I will post some of my FILM CRITIQUES in Humanities 3 subject. And I bet that once you see all the movies I saw, you would be touched and able to think that there are BETTER FILMS than that of commmercializing HOLLYWOOD stuff.

Hi there it’s me, Jarel. I am the author of all the blogs that you have read in my site. I am planning to post all the critiques that I’ve done in my Humanities 3 course. I hope that it can help you decide more on what movies to watch and its messages convey. ‘Till next year. Have a SUPERCALIFRAGELISTICEXPEALIDOCIOUS CHRISTMAS to EVERY ONE.

Love?

            Loving someone would be an unusual feeling a person undergoes. It gives you comfort and security that you are lovable and that you possesses value to the other. Loving, as what other says, is a point in human life wherein all your dreams and sweet thoughts to be loved will come true not minding the quarrels that might arise in the relationship.

            As for me, it’s non-sense. Why did I say non-sense? Maybe, because I was longing for someone in my teen age life to come but it never did. The saddest thing about that is I feel that I am not special or I am not equipped with all the requirements a seeker for love is. Or maybe, I do not have that enough value and importance to others. I see myself to be with my parents when I’m going to be old.

            Some of my friends experienced to be loved by someone. They did share their stories of courting and sweet moments.

            I envied. How come this girl, whose face and attitude is freaking off, got a lover of her own? Why can’t I have one? I mean I am good, I have lots of interesting stories to share, a goal-oriented one cannot get a lover?

            Sometimes I ask the world why is there prejudices in love? I cried many times. I suffered. I know the feeling of being rejected just because of the face that you have, the physique that you have, the gender you belong.

            Amidst the fact that I, for 19 years of my existence, never experienced to be love and valued by a single person, except for my family, is one of the big failure I carry in my heart. I was not able to experience of what it is like to be with someone. Someone who doesn’t judge me base on my face, my physique, or even my gender.

            Foolishness.

            It would be a foolish thing for that someone to risks his pride just by loving me completely. For me, it will remain as a hope. A hope that slowly dying in my heart as I journey towards life. My heart cries in silence. But people never noticed it. They fail to notice it because they see me as a person unworthy of valuing, unworthy of loving.

            Here I am. I am always waiting for that special part of my heart that would swept all my daydreams away. The person whom will courageously take my hand and asking for my permission to be with him through eternity.

            Dream!

Those were just dreams that slowly eat my hope. I am dying. I am afraid.

            I believe that there will be no special person that would come and take my hand because we live in a moralistic society. Where forbidden love is not permitted. Where characters like us do not deserved happiness. Where loving is just too far and too unrealistic to happen.

by: Jarel Enriquez

Deck the halls with bows of holly!!!! fa la la la la la la la la…. it’s Cristmas time again here in Davao City and i am looking forward to it. There will be 9 mornings of simbang gabi and the mouth watering delicacies that will surely feed the hungry stomachs of the people. Carollings on each houses and the cold winds at night signifies that Christmas is just around the corner. Seeing Christmas lights at the Marco Polo and at Rizal Park made me dreamt that i turned into my younger days wherein excitements and presents are the things that i have in mind.
But the saddest thing this Christmas is the fact that i am all alone, with no one to be with this holiday. It’s 19 years of my existence and no one to share my dream with. Lovers walk pass at me and it really pisses me when they make “harutan” like dogs having sex. hahahaha
well, anyway, it is just in my mind. Christmas must be celebrated with genuine love for family, to others, and to God. It doesn’t really matter with having a bf or a gf. it is simply a season of gracing God’s birth for the goodness of humanity. Have a maeningful Yuletide season! A friendly reminder from Jarel Enriquez

Deck the halls with bows of holly!!!! fa la la la la la la la la…. it’s Cristmas time again here in Davao City and i am looking forward to it. There will be 9 mornings of simbang gabi and the mouth watering delicacies that will surely feed the hungry stomachs of the people. Carollings on each houses and the cold winds at night signifies that Christmas is just around the corner. Seeing Christmas lights at the Marco Polo and at Rizal Park made me dreamt that i turned into my younger days wherein excitements and presents are the things that i have in mind.
But the saddest thing this Christmas is the fact that i am all alone, with no one to be with this holiday. It’s 19 years of my existence and no one to share my dream with. Lovers walk pass at me and it really pisses me when they make “harutan” like dogs having sex. hahahaha
well, anyway, it is just in my mind. Christmas must be celebrated with genuine love for family, to others, and to God. It doesn’t really matter with having a bf or a gf. it is simply a season of gracing God’s birth for the goodness of humanity. Have a maeningful Yuletide season! A friendly reminder from Jarel Enriquez